we started pre-production

The other night, at my humble home in Bundoora... Aaron and I sat down and started our pre-production work. This basically consisted of me showing him the beats that have already been selected, and showing him what I've already written for the album. 
I was actually pretty nervous about this, and I never get nervous! Ever.Why was I nervous I hear you ask?

Well, I don't know to be honest. I had a feeling that these tracks i'd been writing for the album were on such a high level than anything else I had done previously, and i suppose i was nervous that when shown to someone else they wouldn't be perceived that way. MUCH to be delight however, Aaron seemed more excited about them than what I was feeling. 



This IS a good thing. To have this so much excitement about something that isn't even halfway written yet let alone recorded etc etc... is a wonderful thing. Have never felt this at home behind the mic or the pen ever... and I'm confident enough with my skills that I no longer feel like I have to ask to be apart of things... I genuinely think I deserve to be there, and am starting to act like it. 

On that note it's amazing how how doors start to open as soon as you change your mind set. This change really effects everything. It changes the way I see myself, the way i act when talking about my music, the way i speak to people when its business (music) related. The biggest change however is with their reaction. As soon as i adopted this change with my attitude things are really moving along. I'm no longer asking nicely if I can be put on the bill, I'm thinking/feeling/saying that I deserve to be there, so you should put me on. I am not an arrogant person be any means, shape or form, but I now understand why arrogant people with not even half as much skill as me were advancing a lot further in a shorter amount of time. As much as I hate it, the music industry isn't all about who's making better music, or who puts on a better show. If you can't sell yourself to others than how good your music is really means nothing. And if you don't believe in what your doing yourself, how can you expect some one else too? 

This all stems back to what I'm trying to do: Make music that I would listen to. This in my opinion should be every artist's (not just music) goal. To make something of such a high quality, that you yourself would buy (or want to buy) that album. That painting. That sculpture. If you are making something that you would buy, then you know two things. 

1. You are making something that is of high quality.
2. You are staying true to yourself. If you aren't meeting these two goals... your not doing it right.



All this is being complimented with hopefully a big name support slot (providing it doesn't fall through) next month. Fingers crossed! I won't say any more until its official, but I am very hopeful.